This might come as a bit of a shock to some people but I like crying. Sometimes, due to circumstances or not you just need to open up the water works and let it all out. True be told, you may even feel slightly better afterwards. Now I am by no means saying that it'll fix the problem but maybe it is like a bit of a reset button and when you're done you can go wash your face and I find that some things make a bit more sense or you can at least see it from a different angle.
Anyway, today I had a cry in the car on the highway which I would not recommend but when I got to where I was going I was able to function with a certain amount of normality. The issue is still there and hurting but maybe I gave it a little panado. Next on the agenda it to give it some rest and time and see where we get.
So there I was skipping and hopping through life and thinking is well. Happiness, Bliss etc etc. Then comes a story about something bad that happened to someone I know. Crisis! Was I that blind. This is the real world and there is a lot of pain and suffering and stuff that goes on. The question is, what to we do about it. Do we keep the La-Di-Da attitude?
I just don't know, but a quote from Al Gore seems relevant:
"I promise you a day will come when our children and grandchildren will look back and they will ask one of two questions. Either they will ask, 'What in God's name were they doing? Didn't they see the evidence?'" Or, he said, "They may look back and say 'How did they find the uncommon moral courage to rise above..."
Be Having Moral Courage
So every now and then something funny happens. This time it was made more funny by the fact that I had just explained what was about to happen and then it did. Let me explain:
There we were, buying jelly beans and my friend, who is to remain unnamed was having a gay old time throwing the packets of jelly beans in the air and catching them. I then proceeded to gesture to her what would happen if she should not catch one, something of an inverted fountain with the jelly beans crashing to the floor and spreading all over the place. This was all explained with hand gestures. Naturally she said that would never happen.
Truth be told, the very next bag that went up in the air, ended up on the floor and the jelly beans were all over the shop.
I am not sorry that I could not stop laughing, after all, I could not have do a pre-play any better. The shop attendant was most kind and took pity on aforementioned friend and gave her a new bag after I eventually helped rid the floor of the jelly bean floor.
So the moral of the story? If you're slightly spastic, don't go throwing jelly beans in the air, especially a whole packet at a time and secondly, try not to laugh too much when you drop stuff in a store- people tend to stare more than they already were.
So in general goodbyes are uncool, I mean if you like the person that is. Naturally if it is your witch of a mother in-law then it is another story and seeing her fly off on her broom could be very satisfying. I digress, my point is that saying goodbye to someone that you care for is not cool, no matter if you know when you'll be seeing them again or not.
My theory then is the following: In order to say hello to someone you have to have said goodbye at some point and I recon that hellos are extremely awesome. I mean, there is always new stuff to talk about, you can see the person, in person and generally have a good time.
So next time you're about to have a sucky goodbye, remember that there will hopefully be an awesome hello to look forward to.
So I have come to a conclusion- Hope is a big deal. Seriously, if you don't hope then you're just hopeless. I think it even runs a little deeper than that in that the essence of being positive is hope. Think about it, if things are going bad then one way of getting out of it is to hope, hope that is gets better, hope that you'll learn to cope with it, hope hope hope.
So where does hope come from, what do you do if you don't have it. Well in my head it is about imagination. If you are able to dream a little (Not talking inception here) the I recon you can hope as your dream should be something to hope for. Again, not talking about nightmares, but the little day dreams or wishes that you have as you go along. Hope in those!
I'll leave you with my own quote of which I am very proud about hope: Hope is like hopping- It keeps you going even when you're not going anywhere.